It’s over now.
I ripped you from my life.
You were woven in so tightly for so long.
I didn’t think I could hold it together without you there.
I didn’t think I’d survive it.
I miss you at times.
We were best friends.
I thought by some miracle we still would be,
But I don’t know you anymore.
What has passed is always faded by what is present.
I left you.
I knew you would move on,
I knew you’d be okay without me.
Sometimes I question if I did the right thing,
But I was miserable.
I went over all the reasons,
All the, “what if’s”.
It just wasn’t enough.
It never would have been enough.
You weren’t enough.
And I guess that’s wrong of me to say.
After fifteen years without saying it.
It’s crowded here in my head.
My mind and heart battle each other.
I find myself alone without direction.
Life finally makes sense.